High pressure...

Spm is coming soon n i stil havent prepare 4 it..all of my frand edi start study in a few month ago bt i stil playing games n games...Come to thk of it..i feel quite worried bout my self n i knw i mst put an end to it...i edi tolf my self STOP PLAYING !!!!!!!!!! bt it stil cant work..maybe i dun hav "somebody" tat important to me to push me?...@.@ blur now..i start to try n try to stop...bt evrytime i try..i failed..i edi failed in my "love relationship"..so i keep telling my self tat i wont failed in next time...bt..wil it comes true..?? hmmm...i cant giv u the asnwer too...bt i knw i hav the chance to the ending coz destiny is in our hand..we can control it..or i should say maybe...sigh..high pressure sure make me feel hard in my life..even the normal action like breathing wil nt be easy...do i hav somebody tat can share some prob wif me? >< nah..i dun thk so..evry1 hav their own prob n they sure edi fedup wif the word "prob"..y they wan to get the trouble since they edi settled their prob...so..i guess i hav to face it myself huh?..3 month to go..ppl at least hav to used month to study the whole thg n i stil left 3 month to go...omg...who can help me? god? u? me? or .... no 1.... i guess i wil jst hav to walk down the path alone wifthout any help n support.. iknw it is hard bt i wil jst hav to try..coz uwil regret if u giving up be4 u try a thg..coz if u try percentage of sucess is 0.001%++ til where i duno... if no try ..is 0%..if there is some sucess rate.i wil try even i knw i maybe gonna failed in tat...jst like "lov"...i wont feel regret coz i edi try it although i failed...at least i got try n i wont stuck in a situation tat "wil she accept me or she wont" ..if u giving up be4 try..tis sentence wil float in ur memorise 4 ever n evrytime u thk of it..u wil feel ur heart is aching..lov or wat..all of it is the same..if u try..u hav the chance ..if u dun..0% so..im gonna try it out so tat i wont feel regret in the rest of my life...bout the gal.tel u nex time coz she is a special ppl in my life so i wil hav a lot to talk bout her..so jana~~(goodbye in japanese)