wat wil u do When u feel u ar reaching ur LIMITS..!!??

I thk my finger edi reaching their limit since i cant played the fastest song in auditionsea....argh...am i a stupid or wat? y cant my finger react faster abit? jst a bit tats enough edi...sigh....cant i jst like cloud!!?? when reaching his limit when fighting sephiroth,he stil can win him by break his limit n use the limits break-omni slash... =.=" i guess i jst cant do tat...wat a useless human being i am...i jst cant do anythg tat is perfect,can i? all failed n no sucess...im tired of tis type of life....so boring and yet..full of hope...it let u tried n tried...n in the end...u lose all of ur hope...if u can stand up again..u wil hav another hope..then...thecycle wil contineous..when can i break the cycle? >< n...when wil the1 i loved realised about my existance?n where is she? i knw in tis world..dun talk nonsence... =.= bt where ? where ar u? i hav a room in my heart n can u faster come n fill it up..? tats the onli available room...jst 4 u...when wil our life get interfere n we wil notice about each other? til the time come...i shall endure the suffering....bt..tats nt big deal...my heart edi lose it pain...i cant feel it anymore..maybe the blood tat drop out a bit by a bit is aso edi dry n there is no more blood in my heart...other than a hollow shell in there.....so..can somebody jst help me to fiiled it up so tat i can feel the feeling 4 once more time? no matter wat type of feeling is it....joy?pain?sweet?sour?...am i edi reaching my limits out there? nt jst in the games bt i thk in the life is the same too...zzz...is my existance in tis world is a worth 1? or im jst a rubbish in tis world!!??maybe is a dust...bt nt more than these 2...i thk... stupid useless noob is the best word to describe me...o.o