My FiRsT TiMe..

Lat two day,i went for my car practical for the first time..All the candidate are require to learn in the small area of cemerlang centre...before drive out to the road..So..i was shocked when i ordered by my instuctor to drive from my house to cemerlang centre..that is my first time..i never touched the gear..the clutch...the accelerator..the brake...not even once...and im asked to drive directly!!?? thats insane man...but..to tell the truth..i was quite enjoyed it. =x Not bad at all..i got andreline all flowing through my body and i feel excited when i drove the car although it was almost under the control of tat instuctor...tommorow wil be my second day of my car practical ...i am so looking forward to it..guess i have addicted to drive a car huh? hahaha Drive a car is just same as doing anything else...you have to feel the clutch n slowly release it and pressed the accelerator slowly..so that the car wil moving forward...when the car is start moving..direct realse the accelerator n kick the clutch.. change the gear from 1 to 2 after that...then release the clutch slowly..and press the accelerator again..you know what..the feeling you get when you drive a car by your own isss sooo damn good...it is marvelous...believe me...hahaha.. guess it is time to stop sharing...signing off now..

*p/s : i wil share the experience of mine on tommorow car learning with you when im free..

Boring Lifestyle..

Life be4 SPM--- playing,then study...

Life after SPM--- playing,then plaing...

after SPM had passed..it represents the cuming of holidays..Be4 SPm..im hoping 4 Spm to over so tat i can hav fun in my holidays...bt..it doesnt cum out as i expected...i do hav my holidays..a lot of free time..can play wat i want..can do wat i wan...bt..u knw...i dont feel even a bit of happiness in this...i wonder why...mb becoz of i hav too much of free time n it makes me feel like my life is worthless? or im already bored wif those games? or i feel like i should do something more meaningful? tats mean wat im doing now ar meaningless? argh...dammit..thinking like this wont help me to solve the prob n find the answer bt to let me hav a headache...maybe i should lay down on my bed,let myself cool down and think about it..probably after took a bath... hm...although it has been quite a long time i dont update my blog n im nt sure even til now..wil other ppl stil checking on my blog..but..to me..writing my feeling on tis blog already becum one of the way 4 me to express out my feeling..neways..im signing off now..n thx to those ppl who stil gt checking out my blog..

planing~

Evryone hav their own plan after SPM bout wat they wan to do or they wish to do..first of all..im gratful becoz of nt chosing to go to PLKN training camp for 3 month..after exam..the 1st thg to do is....take my car lisence so tat i can go evrywhere without asking ppl to fecth me...tats the feel of freedom..and in the same time..wish i can travel to KL 4 a few days wif good frand n hav fun at thre...n...mb i wil go interview a job wif frand then do it for 3 month start from Jan while waiting my results to cum out..after the results is cuming out..tats when our journey of life wil be change...if i get bad results..mb i wil jst stay in penang n study in Form 6 then go to U-ni..bt if i get a better results..i wont wan to go to Form6..tat wil sure be my last choice..if i hav chance to chose..i wil try to find a way to go to Singapore study..bt..they said the living standard is higher..so unless i study harder for my exam ..guess there's no other way to help me...
I hav 1 frand tat his mom is edi dead since he is small...he told me.'my mom always told me tis when she is stil alive"Fight 4 wat u wan wif ur own stregth..n work hard toward it..no1 can help u if u dun do it urself.." ' im quite agree wif wat he said..n..mb it is the time 4 me to make my move..no doubt of tis im a bit late edi..bt..it is better than u dun try it at all.. no matter doing wat..u wil hav to try be4 u thk of giving up..trying is the onli way to make miracle cum true...

so...gambateh all include to me ~~ Im nt a fighter...bt i wil fight 4 wat i want....

Time is Sure Precious...

I jst left 1 more month..no more n no less..im nt saying bout my life..im saying bout the SPM...i jst say tis out in case any of u ar misunderstand..Haiz..ppl like to said tat time is flowing fst jst like the water in the river..bt..i wil nt agreed wif tat guy or gal..coz...to me..time is nt flowing fst..bt is so damn fst..i stil left 1 more month to go bt i stil cant giv up in my game..dammit..tis is no good..red light alert is alarmed bt i stil no take any action...=.="

Some Feeling of mine tat describe by ppl wif romantic word..

Audition Life..(All bout me in Audi)..

Me n my mei in ballroom dance..hahax..i so stupid stil can be party king..so lucky sia><

hehe..a bit shy..dance wif mei..n she kiss me..^^

All strangers..jst fight 4 1st place..

My darling in audi...Xiaoemo..y wont u online often so tat

i can c u...><

playing team battle... 3 ppl vs 3 ppl..

train 4 teamwork..xD

hmm..some example of nt sporting de ppl...

lose liao direct run away in the half...hmph..
havent try hw can knw weather u lose or nt?

YaY!!! 1st place!!! yeep pee!!

^^V

My Audition Life(Appeareance of my character after)

My audition Life (Appearence of character be4)

The appearence of my character be4...

我能给你的爱。。。

我给你

最后的疼爱

是

手放开

Express feelingx...

Here im again..writing out my feeling 4 u all to c..bt i guess...after tat incidence...my blog wil hav less 1 ppl to view it ..bt nvm..its ok..even though no1 wil view it anymoe..i wil stil conti to write..at least..im writing it out to express my feeling...

When we ar making decision..there is no such thg cal perfect decision in tis world..the best decision is : can make less ppl suffer..bt stil...wil hav a small number of ppl suffer...tis is a thg tat u cant avoid it..we ar in real world..nt in fairy tale..so we cant posibly hav happy endings to evry1..mst hav some ppl gett sad ending..decision is nt catgories by good decision or bad decision..it is catogories in weather u ar making the decision tat ur heart desires or nt...n..another ways is catogories it wif..weather u ar making the decision by urself or jst get influence by ur frand...to me..i wont dream 4 a perfect decision..jst in case the sitaution really wan me to chose..between i wil get hurt or the1 i lov wil get hurt..i wil chose let myslef get hurt..i prefer it end in tis ways ...let her lived happily n i suffering alone...without letting she knw..tats the way i lov her when i knw i cant be wif her...it is nt nessasery to keep the1 we lov beside us..as long as she is happy...i..i...i.....(>< duno wan write wat..stuck at here..nvm...) ahem..finish le..(^^v)

Yes & no

Im quite shocked when i knw u stil wil care for me...bt i knw..u ask tat becoz of u ar blaming urself right?dun worry bout tat..im jst doing fine...stil in tis world n no thk of commiting suiside yet..wakaka...xD Actually...there is nth big change happen in my life..the onli differ is i hav more time to play n can comcentrate in my study more.."Be4 u trying...u ar alone...bt after u trying...u ar stil alone...so u do nt loss anythg.." tis is a sentence i pick up from "ping dan comic"...quite a meaningful sentence tat suit me..haha..actually...when u ask me bout weather im fine or nt..the onli answer i can giv u is "yea!! im jst fine..c me so good!!^^" beside from tat..i duno wat else should i answer u..even if i answer u wif "no..im sad..i thk i hav losing the reason 4 me to walk forward..im downing now.." wat can u do? break up wif ur bf n cum to my side? tats impossible right? so wat else can u do even if u get the answer?No matter my answer is yes or no..it wont change a thg..unless it can let u to feel better..so..all i hav to do is say "yea..im fine"..guess tat wil solve our probs..bt actually..im really doing fine..neways..im fine so dun ask tat question anymore...let it be...frand or nt...it is decide by u..im fine wif tat..coz to me..once frand..forever frand...(ps..copy from u xD)

My Past...

DOwn here im gonna write down the thgs tat i thk during my chemistry class..wakaka..coz too boring so i write my feeling down..it is written down be4 "tat thg" happened..so im putting it into my memories...

!st Title:The reason I Live For

One year ago...im the type of ppl tat wil easily giving up in anythg that i hav done..I wont let myself suffer n struggle in anythgs...I wil jst giv up n find another esier thg to do..But..a few month ago...after i had met u...u had changed me...From the moment i meet u...i knw i cant giving up so easily anymore..Not Anymore...Or i should say i dare nt to giv up anymore...
I duno from when on,u edi becum part of my body...letting u go away is same to tearing out my heart when im stil breathing...losing u = losing my life...tats why..eventhough up ahead is a long way tat full of pains...i wil stil walk it down without hesitation..coz i knw u wil show up at the end there...NO matter hw many times i failed n falled down...i wil stil stand up n contineous to walk...I wont stop walking until i reach ur side..never...I wont leave u unlless u leave me 1st,tis is a promise from a guy tat hav nv made promise be4..tis is the first time...n mb the last time i can made promise to u...


2nd Title:My World...

In tis world..all of us hav our own dream..i cant really sure of tis..bt i can sure tat all of us hav differ "world" in our heart..As i knw..my world inside my heart is jst a plain nightsky....without any decoration...(game=stars tat blinking quitely in the sky..jst like diamond tat put on a skarf..)
Form this view..any1 wil aso notice tat my sky is actualy stil lack of somethg...somethg tat is realy importnat..I duno wat is tat until i hav meet u...my sky is jst lack of a full moon
n after tat,,it wil becum perfect..u ar my moon tat make my world perfect..on the other hand..it can be say tat i needed u to make my life perfect..Without u...im losing the reason to live on...i wil jst becum a walking shadow tat littering around without knwing where should i go...

The farest distance between u n me...

世界上最遥远的距离
不是生与死
而是 我就站在你面前 你却不知道我爱你

世界上最遥远的距离
不是我就站在你面前 你却不知道我爱你
而是 明明知道彼此相爱 却不能在一起

世界上最遥远的距离
不是 明明知道彼此相爱 却不能在一起
而是 明明无法抵挡这种思念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里

世界上最遥远的距离
不是明明无法抵挡这种思念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是用自己冷漠的心 对爱你的人
掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠

N...to me..the farest distance is

你用自己冷漠的心 对爱你的人
掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠....

Dream n Nonsense..

dream..is the thg tat we wan to make it become true...it is our hope in our life...the perpose we lived for...or the road tat we chose 4 to change our future...making our future more clolourful and intreresting...becoz of tat..human world is full of hope...Dream...is a wonderful thg..it is nt jst a nonsense although it is similar to it...Dream..u hav put on a lot of effort in order to make it come true...but...nonsense is jst...after u said,u forgot about it...evry1 hav their own dream..dream is beautiful n different from 1 to another..so we cant jst make our own decision n conclude about other's dream is nt beautiful enough...i too hav dream...i hope tat i can go to japan someday, n stay at there...u knw..when the snow falls or the sakura flowers fall from the tree(tat is spring n winter lah)..and u stay in a japanese tradisional house..n sit outside of the room..then drink a hot cup of greentea with ur love1 + enjoying the scenery..it should be very nice..so relax..so calm..so lovely..(at least tats wat i thk of)^^v actually...maybe my dream gal edi appear in my life n maybe nt..i stil cant sure of it yet..coz changes tat happened in life can be so sudden..maybe tis morning he/or she is stand jst in front of u,bt he edi pass away in the afternon...tats my grandfather...sobx...life changes can be so extream...so we can never knw anythg tat wil happen in future until we reach it...mabe u c ur frand 2day is alone bt nex day he is no longer alone n having his/her couple around..(!!!! a bit sidetrack!!! lets turn bac xD ><)ok..jst now we talk about dream...dreamm is a very virtual thg until u make it comes true...dream can aso act as a pillar of strengh tat wil supports u...coz ..HOPE, can be a thg tat sometime make u confuse,make u feel tat the percentage of miracle appear is very small...almost near 0%...so..tats when dream can support u..it tel u tat----tats the thg u wan it happen dun u?so dun wait jst 4 the miracle,u mst chase u dream n hope 4 ur own sake...in tat time..maybe when u ar trying hard to make ur dream comes true..miracle wil be appear...so..they all link together...as least i guess...do u ever thk of giving up ur dream or hope? i thk so..coz we ar nt god..so maybe somwtime we wil get confuse..bt wif the help of frands n family..we can stand up n continuoes walk down the path tat we ar chose....so..lets work hard together to make our dream comes true...

Waiting..a cycle of life....

In our life,i thk evrythg bac there is all related to waiting..All thg in our life is include waiting...like waiting going to n bac from school...hoping 4 the school break..recess...fnish ttn..waiting other to reply while using msn or sms...or waiting 4 somebody to realise bout u n come to ur side...as u can c..waiting is an important action in our life..bt evry1 hate waiting..>< so through tat,a lot of ppl tat hate their life are born..should we hate the process of waiting or jst enjoyed it.? to me..sometime i hate waiting too..tats normally when im waiting 4 my van uncle..bt..in other thg..maybe waiting is one type of trial to u..testing weather u ar true hearted or nt? nah.i dun mean tis..xD wat i mean is...(....blank....) U GO THK URSELF LAH!!!!!!!!!!! xD
do u thk of it be4..hw much time u wil spend in ur whole life jst 4 the word waiting? if u calculated it out...the number wil get u shocked...so...dun calculated better...wakakaka...silently waiting...is a type of waiting..bt jst wil get lesser attention coz it wont knew by a lot of ppl..maybe some ppl wil thk tat u edi giving up hope n choose nt to waiting..coz to some ppl..waitiing is SUFFERING...haha...HOPE..is a dim light in our heart tat wil support u no matter where u go n wat prob u ar face...n if u lose ur light of hope...ur life wil be meaningless..so never giving up ur light of hope..u should face the problem bravely...me? nah..my light of hope is extinguishe 4 sometime be4..bt now..it lighted up again..jst 4 the word"waiting"...so..hw can we said we hated waiting..?opinion pls?thx 4 tats..^^

birthday = normal day....

did any1 thk of it be4? actualy birthday is nth more than ppl wish u hav a nice day in tat specific day...actually ...it is nth right? agree wif me? come to thk of it..in tat day..u stil hav to study,eat,drink,do work,bath,sleep,play..n all sort of tat..u stil nid to contineous doing thg as in normal day...then y it is called birthday? is it becoz of the day u exist in tis world so it is important? hmmm.nt sure about tat..anybody knw? who can giv me the answer ?

wat wil u do When u feel u ar reaching ur LIMITS..!!??

I thk my finger edi reaching their limit since i cant played the fastest song in auditionsea....argh...am i a stupid or wat? y cant my finger react faster abit? jst a bit tats enough edi...sigh....cant i jst like cloud!!?? when reaching his limit when fighting sephiroth,he stil can win him by break his limit n use the limits break-omni slash... =.=" i guess i jst cant do tat...wat a useless human being i am...i jst cant do anythg tat is perfect,can i? all failed n no sucess...im tired of tis type of life....so boring and yet..full of hope...it let u tried n tried...n in the end...u lose all of ur hope...if u can stand up again..u wil hav another hope..then...thecycle wil contineous..when can i break the cycle? >< n...when wil the1 i loved realised about my existance?n where is she? i knw in tis world..dun talk nonsence... =.= bt where ? where ar u? i hav a room in my heart n can u faster come n fill it up..? tats the onli available room...jst 4 u...when wil our life get interfere n we wil notice about each other? til the time come...i shall endure the suffering....bt..tats nt big deal...my heart edi lose it pain...i cant feel it anymore..maybe the blood tat drop out a bit by a bit is aso edi dry n there is no more blood in my heart...other than a hollow shell in there.....so..can somebody jst help me to fiiled it up so tat i can feel the feeling 4 once more time? no matter wat type of feeling is it....joy?pain?sweet?sour?...am i edi reaching my limits out there? nt jst in the games bt i thk in the life is the same too...zzz...is my existance in tis world is a worth 1? or im jst a rubbish in tis world!!??maybe is a dust...bt nt more than these 2...i thk... stupid useless noob is the best word to describe me...o.o

Important sSpirit....

U knw wat is the most impotant thg when u ar playing sports? nah..it is nt about the win n lose man....is it "SPORTING"... when u lose..it mean lose..u cant blame other 4 ur failure...the onli thg u can do is blame ur self "i lose becoz im nt good enough so i mst train harder"..tats it..no more..the1 tat blame other when he lose..he is jst a f**ker... or i should say s**ker..it is more polite...=.=" jst like me..come to thk of it..few month ago..when i was jst tried to pick up my badminton skill after 1 year no play..when i 1st play..my opponent edi is a school representative in badminton(duno use the right word or nt xD) of coz..i lose badly..bt i cant jst blame him u knw..iti s my own fault...my skill is nt good enough(maybe edi rusting?wakaka)..there is once i thk of giving up..coz i thk im too stupid 4 doing evrythg><....even comunicate wif a gal is a prob.maybe im jst a useless guy huh?.nth good bt a lot of bad...bt..after my frand vince advice..i stand up as a man once more time..n now..i believe im better tat the1 im be4...tis is my pay bac after i putting so much effort in my badminton...although im nt the best among my frand yet..bt maybe someday i wil..who knw the thg in the future?..haha hope so...so..i very hate pppl when lose nt sporting...tats jst knw ....s**k....i love badminton..so i jst wan to hav a fair play n happy1...i dun like when ppl lose then they always say smth bad about u..tats shouldnt be happening..bt y ? y it's happening? it is becoz of me?or it is him? duh...stupid ppl let me blur..fine..tis time i wil jst let u go..n if there is another time again....u wil surely done 4 it...maybe my patience is reach the max stage edi..so dun force me to do the thg tat i dun wan to do...i can jst play til half...then go home...tats the most i can do 4 u coz u ar my frand..tats without hurting u..so appretiate it..s**ker..hmph..

Like & LOve....

do u knw wat is the different of like n love? dun tel me u dun knw.o.O".btw..i jst hav to said it out then,u wil knw weather mine opinion n ur(ppl who c tis) opinion is the same or nt....To me...like is jst a good impress tat ppl gav u..u knw..jst like when u meet a new frand..n he/she giv u quite a good impression....so...when otherppl talk about them..u wil say i like them...probably is u dun hate them..xD...jkjk...Love..is a feeling ...erm hw to say...jst like a feeling tat sudenly pop up in ur mind n heart telling u tat "wei...tat's the human being tat u have find 4 so long"..haha..some sort like tat...NOwnow...the different between them is jst 1 thg....u can stil like the1 tat u dun love...bt..u can possibly love some 1 tat even u dun like...like n love...maybe they ar jst differ jst by a line... likelove ..swtt..now im blur aso...it is ur fault calling me to explain it...xD... But..love n like hav a similarity..tat is...some time...they ar hard to be notice by ppl..u knw..sometime...there ar some ppl who is realy care about u n u dun notice about them..coz it is a thg tat after u done n u dun hope 4 the pay bac..jst giv out the love to the1 u love...u care about them coz ujst wan them to live hApply...er...i morning stim stim de..so..hw bout jst til here n i wan go paly my ps2 liao..haha...lz to write lioa.....sayonara~

High pressure...

Spm is coming soon n i stil havent prepare 4 it..all of my frand edi start study in a few month ago bt i stil playing games n games...Come to thk of it..i feel quite worried bout my self n i knw i mst put an end to it...i edi tolf my self STOP PLAYING !!!!!!!!!! bt it stil cant work..maybe i dun hav "somebody" tat important to me to push me?...@.@ blur now..i start to try n try to stop...bt evrytime i try..i failed..i edi failed in my "love relationship"..so i keep telling my self tat i wont failed in next time...bt..wil it comes true..?? hmmm...i cant giv u the asnwer too...bt i knw i hav the chance to the ending coz destiny is in our hand..we can control it..or i should say maybe...sigh..high pressure sure make me feel hard in my life..even the normal action like breathing wil nt be easy...do i hav somebody tat can share some prob wif me? >< nah..i dun thk so..evry1 hav their own prob n they sure edi fedup wif the word "prob"..y they wan to get the trouble since they edi settled their prob...so..i guess i hav to face it myself huh?..3 month to go..ppl at least hav to used month to study the whole thg n i stil left 3 month to go...omg...who can help me? god? u? me? or .... no 1.... i guess i wil jst hav to walk down the path alone wifthout any help n support.. iknw it is hard bt i wil jst hav to try..coz uwil regret if u giving up be4 u try a thg..coz if u try percentage of sucess is 0.001%++ til where i duno... if no try ..is 0%..if there is some sucess rate.i wil try even i knw i maybe gonna failed in tat...jst like "lov"...i wont feel regret coz i edi try it although i failed...at least i got try n i wont stuck in a situation tat "wil she accept me or she wont" ..if u giving up be4 try..tis sentence wil float in ur memorise 4 ever n evrytime u thk of it..u wil feel ur heart is aching..lov or wat..all of it is the same..if u try..u hav the chance ..if u dun..0% so..im gonna try it out so tat i wont feel regret in the rest of my life...bout the gal.tel u nex time coz she is a special ppl in my life so i wil hav a lot to talk bout her..so jana~~(goodbye in japanese)

Deep Sorrow...><

sigh...every1 aso thk tat im a happy go lucky guy..no stress no pressure..i thk they get tat wrong impression is probably becoz of i always playing games huh? i jst hope i could telling them tat they ar wrong...bt i cant..i really hope tat i could hav some1 tat can share my feeling n prob...no matter who...maybe i didnt show my sorrow or pain in front of my frand..bt..i doesnt mean tat i dun hav,right? i jst dun wan ppl worried bout me bt on the other hand,i hope ppl wil care bout me..hmm..ironic huh?>< haha...i lov joking bt tis is sure the whispher of my deep heart... frandship is an amazing feeling...although it is virtual n u cant c it...bt u can feel it when ppl start to care bout u...it givs u a warm feeling n yet it is nt the same type wif lov...nt contaiminate by any thg..jst pure n true heart...can u feel the feeling now? if can..pls leave me a comment n giv me some advicess....

Im late..so sori...my frand><

Come to thk of it...i feel quite regret about 1 thg...nah..it is nt about games or wat...haha(although i knw playgames is my lifestyle)...i jst start be knw her in tis year..n after knwing her 4 a few month..i realise tat she is a good frand(to me of coz nt u xD jkjk)..i regret y i dun go greet her in the last 2 years...if i hav..we may be a more closer frand edi..coz time wil build up a strong frandship...so if u c tis(i mean her)...i jst wan to say" im sooo sori my frand,im late..." hope we can start to build up a stronger frandship tat wil last 4ever...

A hurt tat mean nth if compare to my heart..

2 week ago..after i went to cut hair wif my frand...we went to buy some food in order to fill up our stomach..on the way home..the sky start to turns dark n i can start to feel rain drop on my face..so..i speeded up n using 1 of my hand to tied up the food tat i bought n the other hand to stabilise my bicycle...bt..i wasnt the lucky guy in tat time..so..i falled down..argh..pain..Until now..it have been 2 weeks n the injuries stil havent recover fully yet...i wonder y i change my hand during stabilise the bicyle..it is hurts..but come to thk of it..it is nth if compare to my heart..maybe it is stil better coz i stil can feel the pain...><...hmm...maybe my brain is nt functioning tat time so i use my right hand to grip the left hand side bicyle grip..xD